Beautiful poems by Kylie Fletcher

I am the rain giving strength to those giving up,
Watching children laugh and splash.
I am a lion showing great strength in life
and courage to do whats right
I am timeless, I watch the ages pass and last
I am yellow, I bring joy and light to
sadness and darkness.
I am a weed, my worth is dertermined not by
worldly measures but by godly measures
I am laughter, babbling in the brook
catch me if you can.

So sweet, I love it! Here is my favorite.


Who brings life, to our special home.
Brings sunshine into darkness,
life from death
to make us live forever
and our children will love and honor him
special words he whispers to our hearts
home is where he belongs
our Savior and brother Jesus Christ.


Just wanted to share these and keep them forever.

Easter funnies!!

The 'Easter Bunny' brought Dove's elegant chocolate eggs. While fixing dinner Kylie asked, "Can I have an elephant egg?"

I looked at her like she was crazy, "What?"

She showed me the bag, "There called elegant eggs, Ky. Yes you can have one." David was in the back ground giggling. I said, "Elephant's don't lay eggs."
Then David said, "Yes, they do." he was serious. Then you could see the recognition on his face. "Oh, no they don't," he giggled, "I forgot they were mammals."

Funny kids.

We had a lovely Easter. It was conference weekend which just made it awesome. I was having a really bad lupus day though, so we didn't go to my mom's for dinner. Our unplanned Easter dinner turned out to be quit yummy though. We had the rolls I'd made for the dinner, potato salad, deviled eggs and some leftover sandwich ham. It was a yummy dinner, I think a big thing about what it made so good was how hard the kids worked to pull it off 'cause of sick mommy.

No matter the worries or how hard it is to have Norman gone, we are blessed. We are extremely blessed, spoiled rotten. The gospel, knowledge of our Saviors atonement, what his resurrection means. The temples so close and the promises that the covenants we make give us the greatest peace, hope and desire to live life fully. Caring for others, serving others, being able to repent and try again. We life amazing lives that we need to use to bless those around us. We are the hands of the Lord and must lift up those who's arms are hanging down. I am so thankful.

Kylie--- otherwise known as Lilly

So my sister told me that my blog is private which means I can use my kids real names.

On to Kylie... I was hit with quite a few memories about my sweet kids. Kylie has always needed to be in control in order to make her self feel safe. I don't think that's a bad thing, she has learned to cope better with those situations that she can't have complete control over.

That said; I remember when Kylie was about two we were leaving a store with her. Norm and I each went to grab her hand and hold it while we crossed through the parking lot. She had never been a big fan of us holding her hand and this time as I held on tight, taking away her control, she screamed. "No, it's my hand!!!!" What a spit fire!

More memories later.

Ramblings

Still haven't decorated my blog. Oh well, I think it is more important to write than decorate and since it has been forever...

I have lots of different things on my mind so who know what will come from tonight's blog. I recently heard a study on divorce, and although I don't remember the exact numbers/percentages I do remember this; The biggest amount of divorces happen to people under the age of 25. When I heard that I thought, because they haven't learned to love unconditionally and to be unselfish towards others. Marriage is all about giving to the one you love. I have seen two couples fall prey to this study and they are getting a divorce. The one young man is so devastated you can see it in his face, who he walks/carries himself and even in the sound of his voice. Usually on top of the world and ready to conquer it, with his other half and help meet by his side. Now he is lost and confused, where did he go wrong. Obviously the divorce was initiated by the wife. Which I believe was another part of the statistic, that women are the ones who want the divorce a larger percent of the time. It makes me sad.
Taking stock of those peoples situations ultimately makes me look at my own marriage. Phew! I am so blessed. We are very happy and in love. I do have times when I worry he will leave. Never because of anything he does, always because of my own insecurities. We have talked about this on and off, because I worry. He is so loving and reassuring, I know we are ok. We have been through so much together, maybe that's why our marriage is so strong. We are each others worlds which is the way it should be. I love my hubby.

Enough of that, now what? "I hate bullies!" is the lamenting cry of my dear son Henry. He is bullied at school and I am at a loss of what to do. He is so stressed, and has gone from a boy who loves school so much he cries on the last day of school. I hate that, I want him to like school again. He is so Christ like when it comes to this. Norm and I want him to fight back when he gets hit. (which has only happened once) He won't. I have suggest comments he can make, possibly beating them to the punch or bullying them back. He won't. What a sweet sweet boy. In the afternoons he comes home sad and stressed. then we spend the evening trying to relieve the stress and rebuild his self esteem. This to shall pass. I know, and he will be the stronger for it, but at what price and how much longer will it take? UGH!!!! I hate bullies, too!

My sister informed me that this is a private site where only people I invite can view. That's good to know because I am constantly slipping and using my children's real names. So now I just will. Oh boy told you this would be a ramble, sorry and hope it doesn't scare you away.

Feeling really blue today. The kind of blue that comes from no reason at all and a million reasons all at once. Missing my wonderful hubby who works diligently in Ca. while we play in Utah. I like to e-mail him daily, my 365 reasons I love you. It has been really fun. Then sometimes I will e-mail just to say hi. This morning I missed him so much and wanted to snuggle that I e-mailed him a 'cyber snuggle' NOTHING kinky just sweet and fun. I was even going to copy and paste it here. I can't seem to make it work though. Anyway, I am super thankful for all the ways we can communicate from so far away.

I am also blue because of my daughter Becca who seems to always have something wrong so she cant go to school or anything. We have known that a lot of it is emotional and stress related but getting her to keep going is impossible until there is a serious line drawn in the sand. This is the last big line with her turning 19 and needing to be in school full time to be on our ins. Ugh!!! She's up and going after another swift kick of reality, how long will she last though? I don't know and I am tire of stressing and worrying about it. She needs to live life now!!! I do love her tons and blame myself for the prediciment she is in for so many reasons. I hope we can get her out. Done for now, I just made myself sad all over again. Time to listen to more Darius Rucker.

My children, my examples...

Last weekend I was very frustrated with someone. Instead of keeping it to myself or even waiting to be alone with my husband to vent my frustrations I shared them with the whole house. Not wise, I know better, I don't want to color anyone's opinion of someone they know. Plus, it was gossip, judging and speaking ill of someone all in one. I went almost completly off the deep end and got myself all riled up. Totally unnecessary.

Sweet Lilly to the rescue! She gave me a note, at the top it said, "5 things I love about ..."
She told me to sit down and write 5 things I liked about that person. Believe me I did not want to!!! I knew I had to though, because I would have and have made her do the same thing. So I began to think.......

"Can I write, 'helpful, when they want to be?" I asked.

"Mom," she sighed, "now you have to write two happy memories you have of them too."

"Ugh, I don't like being your mom." I grumbled

She gasped, "your kidding, right?!"

"Yeesss, I'm kidding." scribble, scribble, scribble.

She was exactly right to have me do that because it calmed me down and put it all in perspective. Then when I handed her my homework she told me I needed to go say a prayer. I didn't right away, so when she asked me later if I had. Well, I said, "no." she gave me the cutest look that said, 'Michaeline, I'm disappointed in you, go do it right now."

She is wonderful, I am so thankful for her sweet sweet heart. I would be lost with out the sunshine she brings into our home. She is a great example of humility, charity. She is working so hard to do what is right and always seems to be thinking before she acts, 'is this Christ like?"
If she happens to act rashly or lash out she is so quick to remedy the situation. She can't lie for long at all, maybe a few hours, but she always tells the truth before to long. She can't sleep with a guilty heart. What an angel.

Thought on friends, and more.

When we were moving back to Utah from Ca. Henry was worried about making friends. The night before we left he sat up drawing pictures and wrote this thought.

"If you have one good friend, you have more than your fair share."

I love the way his little mind works. How he works out his stress and anxiety through creating. It is so hard when he is stressed and can't just stop and draw. He has been doing that since he was three or four. sometimes drawing won't work so he heads for the piano and plays till he feels better. I remember being at a Psych. appointment for "Lilly" the 14 yr. old girl, Henry was just about 5 and stressing out so he asked to draw. The Dr. was amazed at how it this little boy was able to turn his anxiety and stress around. He said it was an amazing ability at any age let alone 5. Very impressed.

Now for Lilly who is always the cheerful sunshiney one. The other night after going to bed she hollered,

"Good night, sleep tight. Dream of happiness tonight!" Sweet!

In her father's blessing when she was a baby he said she would be full of charity. She is often overflowing!

Monday night was a huge stress, dinner wasn't ready until 7:00 and there was chaos everywhere. she sensed my distress and was there trying to help. "Mom, calm down just breath. How can I help." she was busy doing other things so I told her not to worry. When I came back from the restroom, she was busy washing my dishes. I really appreciate her sweetness. She is the one kid who knows her responsibilities and takes care of them without being told 90% of the time. She knows what she needs to do and would rather get it out of the way than have it, "hanging over my head," she says. She has also seen the awesome benefits of being responsible and on task. She reads her scriptures every night and has been for over a year. If there is a reason she wants to say up late she makes sure to read them early in the evening. I am glad to see her taking care of her spiritual needs. She is great example to me, her brother, sister, and her young womens leaders.

It's snowing bubbles!!!

I just got back from dropping Henry off at scouts. It was just beginning to snow and the flakes were huge and fluffy. When the light caught them it looked just like the bubbles they use to make it snow at Disneyland, only better. :)

It brought all these fun memories of hundreds of days wandering the parks and hitting the rides. My kids are such good sports to stand in line for two hours just to try a new ride, wait no I was such a good sport to do that. We did wait in lines but only that long once. While waiting in line we would visit with each other and even the people around us. Just ask my hubby and the kids, mom is notorious for talking to strangers I never grew out of it. I would often hear people asking each other where do you think it is how can we do it etc. Then it was Michaeline to the rescue!!! We know everything about the park so I was always sharing helpful tips to anyone that I thought needed it.

I remember one night when we first started going. I noticed two little girls crying by the Tea Cups entrance because they lost their parents. I stopped to help, of course, and took them to the Mad Hatter shop close bye. Once they were safe with an employee who new what to do my family and I headed on our way. We had gotten a fair distance away when I noticed some panicked people looking for their little ones. I approached them and asked some simple questions, and sure enough those were their little girls. After telling them where we had deposit them they ran to a happy reunion. Everyone should have fun at Disneyland.

Henry

Henry is my 11 yr old son. I have, of course changed his name for posting purposes. He is a very talented boy, and I am daily amazed and tickled with the fun he brings. He can write a mean essay, story, poem or thought. He is working on a book, which is getting rave reviews from us and his teachers. He can draw the most beautiful and amazing pictures. He is also a great cartoonist and has us giggling quite often. He is taking piano lessons and is very good, the only problem with that is he usually is to busy writing his own music to practice the assigned songs! His songs are beautiful and have great potential. His creativity and funny little thoughts are another reason I started my blog. I want to share them with everyone I know.

Here are a couple to wet your whistle.

The other night he was washing dishes and very frustrated at having to do chores. He has a temper and growls a lot, he is trying to control his temper. Instead of growling he started to sing,
"I'm walking and washing
I'm doing my chores.
I really don't like them
please don't give me more."

What a funny guy.

He has spelling every week and does not like to do the sentences. I made him sit and do them while I was around. Two of the sentences are called D.O.L (Daily oral language) He began a title on his page;

"D.O.L D.O.L is dull!"

I love my son!!!

I'm just learning, so bear with...

I have been thinking about doing a blog for ages. I just haven't felt I have anything to share. Now that I have an idea and have created one, I'm lost. I digress...

I have decided to blog the fun things my kids say. I am constantly telling my friends and family, "You should write that down." When they tell me something cute their kids say, yet I have been terrible at it all along. Now that they are 18, 14, and 11 I think I have found a way to get myself to do it regularly. I haven't decided what to do about thier names, should I use them or 'protect the innocent?' Guess I can decide as I go.

So the thing that made me decide to do this was a sweet card from my 14 year old daughter, she gave it to me for my birthday.

On the outside it said,

"It is the special people in our hearts who make life complete." Adele Basheer

Then on the inside she wrote;

"Dear Mom,

The Best Day is a song written by Taylor Swift to tell her mom she loves her. Mom I don't have a gift to write songs, write down feelings. I only have the gift to sing and tell you how important you are, and maybe more gifts to come. Whenever I sing it makes me happy. Whenever I smile it's because I have joy in my life, I hope I make you have joy, laughter, hope and happiness, but most of all I hope you know that the song happens to be in all the moments with you. I love you a ton."

She has the sweetest heart and I see a talent for writing in those words. What would I do with out that sweet heart?