So my sister told me that my blog is private which means I can use my kids real names.
On to Kylie... I was hit with quite a few memories about my sweet kids. Kylie has always needed to be in control in order to make her self feel safe. I don't think that's a bad thing, she has learned to cope better with those situations that she can't have complete control over.
That said; I remember when Kylie was about two we were leaving a store with her. Norm and I each went to grab her hand and hold it while we crossed through the parking lot. She had never been a big fan of us holding her hand and this time as I held on tight, taking away her control, she screamed. "No, it's my hand!!!!" What a spit fire!
More memories later.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Ramblings
Still haven't decorated my blog. Oh well, I think it is more important to write than decorate and since it has been forever...
I have lots of different things on my mind so who know what will come from tonight's blog. I recently heard a study on divorce, and although I don't remember the exact numbers/percentages I do remember this; The biggest amount of divorces happen to people under the age of 25. When I heard that I thought, because they haven't learned to love unconditionally and to be unselfish towards others. Marriage is all about giving to the one you love. I have seen two couples fall prey to this study and they are getting a divorce. The one young man is so devastated you can see it in his face, who he walks/carries himself and even in the sound of his voice. Usually on top of the world and ready to conquer it, with his other half and help meet by his side. Now he is lost and confused, where did he go wrong. Obviously the divorce was initiated by the wife. Which I believe was another part of the statistic, that women are the ones who want the divorce a larger percent of the time. It makes me sad.
Taking stock of those peoples situations ultimately makes me look at my own marriage. Phew! I am so blessed. We are very happy and in love. I do have times when I worry he will leave. Never because of anything he does, always because of my own insecurities. We have talked about this on and off, because I worry. He is so loving and reassuring, I know we are ok. We have been through so much together, maybe that's why our marriage is so strong. We are each others worlds which is the way it should be. I love my hubby.
Enough of that, now what? "I hate bullies!" is the lamenting cry of my dear son Henry. He is bullied at school and I am at a loss of what to do. He is so stressed, and has gone from a boy who loves school so much he cries on the last day of school. I hate that, I want him to like school again. He is so Christ like when it comes to this. Norm and I want him to fight back when he gets hit. (which has only happened once) He won't. I have suggest comments he can make, possibly beating them to the punch or bullying them back. He won't. What a sweet sweet boy. In the afternoons he comes home sad and stressed. then we spend the evening trying to relieve the stress and rebuild his self esteem. This to shall pass. I know, and he will be the stronger for it, but at what price and how much longer will it take? UGH!!!! I hate bullies, too!
My sister informed me that this is a private site where only people I invite can view. That's good to know because I am constantly slipping and using my children's real names. So now I just will. Oh boy told you this would be a ramble, sorry and hope it doesn't scare you away.
Feeling really blue today. The kind of blue that comes from no reason at all and a million reasons all at once. Missing my wonderful hubby who works diligently in Ca. while we play in Utah. I like to e-mail him daily, my 365 reasons I love you. It has been really fun. Then sometimes I will e-mail just to say hi. This morning I missed him so much and wanted to snuggle that I e-mailed him a 'cyber snuggle' NOTHING kinky just sweet and fun. I was even going to copy and paste it here. I can't seem to make it work though. Anyway, I am super thankful for all the ways we can communicate from so far away.
I am also blue because of my daughter Becca who seems to always have something wrong so she cant go to school or anything. We have known that a lot of it is emotional and stress related but getting her to keep going is impossible until there is a serious line drawn in the sand. This is the last big line with her turning 19 and needing to be in school full time to be on our ins. Ugh!!! She's up and going after another swift kick of reality, how long will she last though? I don't know and I am tire of stressing and worrying about it. She needs to live life now!!! I do love her tons and blame myself for the prediciment she is in for so many reasons. I hope we can get her out. Done for now, I just made myself sad all over again. Time to listen to more Darius Rucker.
I have lots of different things on my mind so who know what will come from tonight's blog. I recently heard a study on divorce, and although I don't remember the exact numbers/percentages I do remember this; The biggest amount of divorces happen to people under the age of 25. When I heard that I thought, because they haven't learned to love unconditionally and to be unselfish towards others. Marriage is all about giving to the one you love. I have seen two couples fall prey to this study and they are getting a divorce. The one young man is so devastated you can see it in his face, who he walks/carries himself and even in the sound of his voice. Usually on top of the world and ready to conquer it, with his other half and help meet by his side. Now he is lost and confused, where did he go wrong. Obviously the divorce was initiated by the wife. Which I believe was another part of the statistic, that women are the ones who want the divorce a larger percent of the time. It makes me sad.
Taking stock of those peoples situations ultimately makes me look at my own marriage. Phew! I am so blessed. We are very happy and in love. I do have times when I worry he will leave. Never because of anything he does, always because of my own insecurities. We have talked about this on and off, because I worry. He is so loving and reassuring, I know we are ok. We have been through so much together, maybe that's why our marriage is so strong. We are each others worlds which is the way it should be. I love my hubby.
Enough of that, now what? "I hate bullies!" is the lamenting cry of my dear son Henry. He is bullied at school and I am at a loss of what to do. He is so stressed, and has gone from a boy who loves school so much he cries on the last day of school. I hate that, I want him to like school again. He is so Christ like when it comes to this. Norm and I want him to fight back when he gets hit. (which has only happened once) He won't. I have suggest comments he can make, possibly beating them to the punch or bullying them back. He won't. What a sweet sweet boy. In the afternoons he comes home sad and stressed. then we spend the evening trying to relieve the stress and rebuild his self esteem. This to shall pass. I know, and he will be the stronger for it, but at what price and how much longer will it take? UGH!!!! I hate bullies, too!
My sister informed me that this is a private site where only people I invite can view. That's good to know because I am constantly slipping and using my children's real names. So now I just will. Oh boy told you this would be a ramble, sorry and hope it doesn't scare you away.
Feeling really blue today. The kind of blue that comes from no reason at all and a million reasons all at once. Missing my wonderful hubby who works diligently in Ca. while we play in Utah. I like to e-mail him daily, my 365 reasons I love you. It has been really fun. Then sometimes I will e-mail just to say hi. This morning I missed him so much and wanted to snuggle that I e-mailed him a 'cyber snuggle' NOTHING kinky just sweet and fun. I was even going to copy and paste it here. I can't seem to make it work though. Anyway, I am super thankful for all the ways we can communicate from so far away.
I am also blue because of my daughter Becca who seems to always have something wrong so she cant go to school or anything. We have known that a lot of it is emotional and stress related but getting her to keep going is impossible until there is a serious line drawn in the sand. This is the last big line with her turning 19 and needing to be in school full time to be on our ins. Ugh!!! She's up and going after another swift kick of reality, how long will she last though? I don't know and I am tire of stressing and worrying about it. She needs to live life now!!! I do love her tons and blame myself for the prediciment she is in for so many reasons. I hope we can get her out. Done for now, I just made myself sad all over again. Time to listen to more Darius Rucker.
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